ThE VOICE WITHIN

Losing someone early in life often leaves behind a wound too deep for words. When the person lost is your emotional anchor—your safe space—the grief becomes even harder to process. And when it's left unexpressed, it can silently shape your body, your mind and your future.

That’s exactly what happened to me- my journey of healing began years after losing my elder brother.

“I’m the youngest of six siblings. My closest brother was nine years older than me, but he was everything. He understood me without words. I felt safe, seen.”

At the time of my brother’s wedding, I had just begun college. Life felt full of possibilities. But only 16 days later, tragedy struck. My brother was on his way to Jharsuguda from Sambhalpur to attend a wedding. En route his vehicle met with an accident. That one phone call that I  received with the news, changed my world forever.

I still remember the words. They shattered something inside me.

I didn’t know how to grieve. So I buried the pain and then just pushed forward with life—graduating, getting married, becoming a mother. Outwardly, everything looked fine. But inside, I felt hollow and emotionally disconnected.

I was just ticking boxes, but something always felt off.

My suppressed grief soon began showing up in my body—thyroid imbalance, PCOD, a disc prolapse and chronic fatigue. Eventually, I  became bedridden and was so helpless that I could'n't even care for my toddler.

I didn’t recognize the person I had become.

I was at the rock bottom when something shifted in me. My intuition whispered a choice: stay stuck or start healing. I just knew it that this is the point of no return. I listened and  began reconnecting with my emotions, my body, my breath. I found support through Ayurveda, yoga, meditation and holistic therapies. With each step, she slowly untangled years of internal pain and numbness.

The healing wasn’t instant—it took six years of deep work. But I returned home to myself. Now, I hold space for others to reconnect with themselves. Because true healing begins when you finally meet yourself.

(Today, Premsai is a transformational clarity coach, a leadership facilitator and a yoga practitioner. But more than titles, she is a woman who feels whole again)